Sometimes, when you feel something strongly enough, it overwhelms your thoughts, actions, and decisions. This feeling urges us to act upon it somehow, and the way in which we act determines so many things about who we are and who we want to be; who we will become.
I acted upon something I believed in. And now something that I’m feeling has taken over my thoughts, actions, and decisions. It’s funny - for the first time, I think that I know.
Uhhhh…..well, the observation that I have made in the past (insert amount of time here) is that things can never be completely good. Or completely stable. Or completely right.
BUT, they can be mostly good. Mostly stable. And mostly right.
And no matter what you do, you can never change that.
Alright. So I had this great realization.
You will go on with life and be happy. You’ll get married and have a huge family (because that’s how it goes, right?) and someday we’ll be family friends, and our kids will be friends. Well…even if that doesn’t happen, we’ll still be friends. Just because you are leaving doesn’t mean that we will no longer be friends. Summer is just around the corner, and this is going to be the best summer of my life. I will be a senior next year, and I’ll be leaving in a year from now. With all the luck and blessings in the world, I’ll be going exactly where I want to go. We’ll see when we get there though. Both of us (on that note, all three of us), have lives to live. You’re so close to completing this one part of your life, I’m sure it’s the most bittersweet thing you’ve ever experienced. You will never be forgotten here. As the two of you are off being the coolest kids at the coolest university in America, we’ll be over here, in Littleton, living our own lives. Someday, my friend, when you’re both still roommates, I’ll be there with my own awesome roommate, and we can party it up like it’s our job.
But really. You’re not gone forever. Not even close.
My head is in my hands. My heart hurts.